Wonderful.
yesterday was wonderful. worship experience, BREAK FREE, the power and atmosphere of the place.sometimes i hate it. other times,i love it to pieces <3 class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">UNO and stuff and we learnt again about Gideon, the farmer boy who plants grass (: and we learnt about faith too! and of course the dearly beloved,mahjong paper :)

today was splendid too. went to vivo with my clique to celebrate Eleanor's birthday! (: and we went to build a bear. and we built a bear for my goodbye we fluffed it, all four of us and then we put 4 hearts into the bear, writing our initials on them, rubbed them to make them warm and then made a wish and kiss it! so we stuffed it inside 4 hearts, a bear with 4 hearts.
and it will stay that way. haha! (:

take me now away beyond the veil
where i can see you
where i can see you
Jesus

and i still have dreams of the rubix cube, yes the rubix cube how at every turn something bad happens a worse one each time a nightmare.


a day left in st margs.hopefully.
I AM A PROUD PON-ER of school.yupps. today i woke up with a mission : to pon school. heh. so i walked into the kitchen and told my daddy i did not want to go to school and so he allowed me to. so now i am all alone at home. need to recover from things happening around me. all too quick all too sudden that i don't know what is happening, i don't feel it.i feel more than it.

yesterday i had a blast of time at plaza singapura with nicole chia. all the camwhoring! haha. we were supposed to go there to shop for christmas presents. at least i know what i can do now. then we went shopping <3 , without any money. we found this shop from australia and the things there are so nice and cheap! (: COTTON ON! (:

tell me.Lord, guide me.

SOCIAL ETIQUETTE CLASS
and everyone laughs, HA-HA

but thinks arent looking good. they just arent. today i went with anita to vivocity to TOYS 'R'US to buy the rubix cube and yeah we had lunch too. then stopped at wierd places like new urban male, topshop(they were having a sale up to 70% (:),the all so loved armani exchange and of cause the big splendor of heels at ALDO annnnnnnnnnnddddd CANDY EMPIRE! haha.bused back and during the bus taught anita how to solve the rubix cube. she did it.hah.which reminds me of a funny accident just now.

ruth: toys r us is under the CHHHHIIILLLdren's section
anita:yupps
ruth: i am still a child so i go there!
anita: you havent turned 13 yet?
ruth: i have but i am still a child! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

and yeah i was getting sort-of-hyper jumping all around and all of a sudden these two nerdy ACS(i) guys turned behind and stared at me with the LOOK. heh. mean people but oh wells, they ended up walking into it too! so we were playing with the water noodles and they thought that we were crazy.

we are crazy people that's the way we are. crazy dots of st margarets

I SOLVED THE RUBIX CUBE
its a wonderful way of stress/anxiety relief,when we get our papers back.

i find watching the spoofs of HSM extremely funny, it makes my day! haha. yeah/ todayw as fun going to thomson with nicole chia and deciding to eat only vegetables for the rest of my life cause everytime i see meat, for example chicken, i imagine it running and then this mad man with a chopper comes and chops the wing of, fries it and gives us to eat it. EWWWWWWW!

haha. and yeah. DOUGH BROUGHT US TOGETHER. i just realised! haha. and ytd was wondeful, sitting on my bed, interceding for people who were hurting. it felt really gpood, the reassurance that God will bless them!

flap your wings and fly penguin! (:

SADDD.

i got A2 for english.shocking yeah?with the normally horrible marks that i have in class. heh x) but its really stupid cause for overall i had a B3. how am i supposed to transfer out.
and now my average is down :( GRRRRR, a big fat dumb 74.

and i think that there is something wrong with my bones/joints cause i keep on cracking them. so i cracked my left arm. and now my back's hurting. not forgetting my left knee. stupid ruth, if only she was not so accident prone. yeah it aches to lift both of them up. :(

BOY DAO!
yeah. i am daoing boys, it started yesterday,ends tmr. dont ask me why.

HEH! i did not die today. got back science and LAP today, our buttocks glued to the floor for 5 hours. imagine how much they hurt and adding to the fact that i did lots of lunches yesterday, it was bad :(

I GOT AN A1 FOR SCCIIIIEEEEENNNNCEEEEE.SO WHAT?
i did not die.but she still isn't pleased at all.

as for LAP i dont know how many marks i got didn't bother to count the marks though i got them will do so tomorrow at the botanics so that i can cry there.anyone want to go?
lots of holiday homework :(

and i thank him for all he's done. how he helped me to study well and granting me 2 marks more for each of my papers.
tears rush down my eyes. Why? maybe its because i know that i will do badly for LAP. maybe its her high expectations. i don't know//all the things that hurt me in the past are hurting me again. lost confused.just how can i please her. i will give up everything. everything

my prepared post for friday.

i screwed,really bad. i don't know how i am going to transfer out. she's going to scream at me and once again, the efforts all wasted. blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah and so now here i am looking at my dreadful marks. what am i going to do, someone's going to hate me, for life.just thinking of whats going to happen has placed tears in my eyes.the immense fear, something so powerful.

I AM DEAD

yeah. i still dread it alot.
tomorrow, i expect,lots of tears.

I PON-ED SCHOOL AGAIN!

hahahaha. Ding! getting back results tomorrow, i feel like an ostrich wanting to dunk its head into a sandpit.i need need need to get all A1s. i am really scared that i will flunk anything or get a bad grade cause i know that this time, the consequences are the worst. i need need need need to.
GOD help me.
i have put in my best,i really want to make her please.

"I'm scared ):
When I start getting excited and high high high! :D :D But this friday, we're getting our papers back FRIDAY. I so don't want that stupid day to come ): It's going to be the worst Friday in the whole year."
-Jayna.

it really stinks a whole lot, can't you smell the awful smell? whats more, its chinese first


heh i just got my first bill. its good,did not POP! it. haha.i spent $250.18, all wiped away by the plan. hahaha! (:

todays good, not that i was sick or anything if you didnt see me in school,
I PON-ED SCHOOL!
i had the permission to (:

RESULTS

life after exams are weird,its the longest time i studied with a goal, a force ;stronger one like no other. cause i know the consequences.i feel like mugging it feels so weird slacking all of a sudden and not doing any work.i think i should treasure this time cause i know that life during holidays are going to be stressful, much stressful.
i want to pon school tomorrow. i really dont know how i will fare,i really want to score good. i cant afford to do badly. i cant afford to loose any A1s. if not i really would not know what to do.someone's going to hate me for life.





and if you never could tell
I LOVE MY DADDY.

It rolls down my face
one clear blue drop
it would if it could
but this pearl can't stop

it leaves a trail
and in it engraved
all that I am
broken but saved

credits: Gideon. i know this isn't the whole poem but it will be one day.

yeah. it stinks. a lot. imagine a llllooooonnnnnnggg term medical leave from all sports except swimming. not a month, not a few months but a whole year.well cause they are important to me so so important.

no basketball,running, skating,cycling,badminton,jogging,brisk walking,ice skating, learning tennis, rock climbing,dancing,jumping,skipping etc

seeing an orthopaedic really soon :( cause the stupid ligament is loose. heh x) imagine not doing things you love for a year.i don't know what will happen, I'll just leave it to God.

but how much more do you want?

"In the end, Jo refuses Laurie’s offer of marriage, despite the fact that everyone assumes they will end up together."
maybe lit has some meaning to it. how sad it is, they both love each other yet can never be together :(


this is the globe.
big and round just the way people like it. GUESS WHAT?
i think its going to fall down crash on me.
REALLY BADLY.


EXAM's ENDING! (:

and once again. its the same
1. GOD
2. Family
3. Friends
4. studies
5. health
6. sports
7. music

(a quote from Marianne Williamson)
Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves,
Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some, it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others.



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